Why are you crying???

I felt so tired when I woke up this morning.. why???
That's because Colin was waking up like every hour last night. Ok, I fed him around 10:30pm and then he went to sleep, then he woke up around 2:30 for feeding (which was fine).. but then, he woke up again at 3:30, 4:30, 6:30.. i was like.. "what the hell???".. I don't know what's wrong with him b/c I noticed that recently, when I fed him.. he looked like he's drowning in milk.. he always chokes.. I told him "hey there, drink slowly, nobody is going to take the milk away from you, you're my one and only customer".. but still he kept on choking. I felt like he's rushing when he's drinking. Yeah, I know he has a lot of people to see and socialize with (as if)..

Anyway, aside from my lack of sleep.. I woke up to a hysterical little girl. Ava was crying and crying. I think she knows now that she can get "stuff" if she cries hard enough (blame Simon for this). She was whining so much that I want to slap her (but I didn't of course). However, when she was being too unbearable, I did take out "the hand" and I slapped it to the floor and then asked her, "do you want to get slapped"? she shook her head (and kinda stopped crying for a little bit). Then I said " then enough with these crying.. if you want something, ask for it nicely, don't cry". Of course... it's not like she understands completely what I said, so she kept on crying. Finally, I took her with me to her room, and face her to the corner. I said go sit at the corner, time out, do not look at me until you stop crying. She kept on going and going... and I kept on facing her to the wall. So finally, she said "mee mee" .. and I said, " you want noodle??" and she nodded. So i said ok, but no more crying.. and finally she stopped. So, I told her, see, if you asked or said it nicely, I can give you what you want.

It's so hard being a mom....

P.S. A lot of you probably are curious about "the hand".. I'll take pic and update it tomorrow.. hehehehehe